I hate love! I've always craved the feeling but all its done is totally screw me. Instead of feeling good, all its done is compound my vulnerabilities and insecurities and enhance my sense of worthlessness because I dont feel I deserve Hina. Life was fine before all this. I had music and I had work. Didnt need to think about anything. Now all I do is worry about where she is and what she's doing. Just because I love her? Love is not for the mentally unstable; and I'm as unstable as they get.I'...